Saturday, November 20, 2010

Chem - mystery

Haiiiiiiiiiiii. Finally college tomorrow. :D
And yeah, I've got exams also from tomorrow. I still remember and miss my exam days in 11th and 12th. Now when I look back, I miss all that tension and pressure. I particularly remember the nights before my chemistry exams. Oh the JOYYYYYYYYYYY!
I used to pretend I'm studying, throughout the weekend. You know like being stuck on one page for 2 or 3 hrs. I used to convince myself, padhai ho rhi hain.
And just as it used to be 10.00 pm at Sunday night. Bas beta. My resting heart rate would be 100- 120 bpm. I used to make a timetable. Finish one chapter by 11 pm. 15 min break. Coffee. Yes loads of black coffee. I used to practically survive on coffee. Anyway, then probably sleep for an hour. Text a friend, 'Kitna hua?'

The morning before the exam was even more awesome. No sleep the whole night. Quick shower and running to school looking like a ghost (I didn't sleep remember?) and carrying huge fat books in my arms. Meeting Adwiti on the way. Watching her laugh at me and asking "hogya tera portion?"
I used to give her "The Look" and she used to laugh again.
Last minute revision before the exam, outside the class. Learning formulae, structure and reactions...! And then I used to enter the class. The pressure used to kill me.
Getting to my seat. Waiting for my sort-of-hot partner to get seated. His name was bhavik btw and was younger to me. Cute tha.
Fir paper milta tha. I used to read my question paper and try very, very hard to understand. But it always used to feel like some greek manuscript thats halfway through an english translation.
I don't remember what I used to write in my paper. And my question paper was always full of drawings. Answer sheet empty. In order to make use of the time, I used to stare at people. Read my partner's question paper, sometimes solve it. Look around and judge people. Stare outside the window. Count the no. of tiles on the floor.

Now when I look back, I wish I should have actually tried to study chem. My teacher was SO good. Not that my board result would affect my college. But this is a weird feeling. I long for chemistry now.
So basically, if you are to study something right now, and you don't like that subject at all. Try once again. Dil se. Cause someday you're goin to miss it.